I have this very intense fear of being regular. Of becoming normal. Of being just like everyone else. I have no idea where it comes from or why it colors the way I think about things. But it does.

I think it’s a desire not to be tied down. A deep paranoia of that “quiet desperation.” Not liking what you do, living vicariously through others. To wake up one day and realize that if you really had something to say, there’d be no way you could tell anyone. You know, that day where you reach for your revolver.

Whatever. It’d be real easy to get caught up in that. That being different is better. And if you’re different then you’re better. Here’s the thing I’m starting to realize: It says way more about me than it does about everybody else. It comes from a place of deep insecurity. If it creates anxiousness, it’s probably not coming from self-comfort or assuredness.

It’s not something to be proud of or hold up against other people, because frankly, it has nothing to do with other people. Some amorphous, reactionary fear over something that not only have complete control over but have the ability to define as well is not exactly an improvement.

Like most things, it’s internal and that’s where I need to direct the attention.

Here’s the thing about me: I don’t really have many special skills. I can’t code, never trained in marketing, no financial background, and I certainly don’t have ‘years in the business’ behind me. But I’m doing alright working in precisely those fields.

I think in one sense, specializing in any of those areas is often disadvantage because it subverts your priorities and how you look at the world.

Think about the phrase “making connections.” A lot of people confuse it with seeing connections. Any idiot can see a connection. Making them is a totally different animal. It’s constructive process. It’s creative process. It’s taking two unrelated things and forging a relationship that wasn’t there before you found it.

Or think about networking. It seems safe to translate it as “meeting people” but how is that a network? A network is interconnected of nodes who share and receive information. In other words, job fairs and Linkedin are completely worthless. Networking, then, is about more than yourself – it’s current that you tap into and simultaneously power.

Most people lack a very basic but fundamental skill – the ability to look at things beyond the most obvious level. I think calling it a skill is generous, it’s more of a way of thinking or how you carry yourself. They can spot connections and have a huge Rolodex of contacts, but they couldn’t connect two unrelated things you if needed it and none of the nodes in their network have ever actually transfered packets of information.

Most people will never know what it’s like to get so excited that you have to pace to contain yourself. It’s all logical to them – spend to earn, ‘a lot of people are doing this,’ wait for approval, ‘that seems like a bad idea,’ ‘it’s the weekend, I’ll get to it Monday,’ whatever. And in the process, they cripple themselves irrelevant.

They forget that it’s all a hustle. They forget all the operative words: make, build, design, discover. Those aren’t business cliches. They are verbs, actions, processes. You don’t do any of that behind your desk waiting for emails. It doesn’t stop when you leave the office. It doesn’t stop ever.

I don’t know about you I’d just as soon stay poor than have that be the culmination of the my multiplatinum music career.

I know we’re also supposed to believe that Sean Combs is massively successful businessman, but if he was, do you think he’d be slocking acne creme on late television for what is proportionally, pennies? And he probably wouldn’t be humiliating himself for the worst fast food chain on the planet. (besides Arby’s)

Here’s the thing: Most people are liars, they’re miserable and that don’t have principles where it matters.

You don’t have to be like that.